My friends are gods who forgot that they are gods, and there is nothing more tragic than that. There is nothing sadder than seeing a god forgetting his/her own story and abilities; and yet that condition is so prevalent amongst them it almost feels endemic.
While most people might have one or two life-defining experiences (danger, struggle, whatever), me and my friends used to have like 4 of them a week, and then go back to working jobs, or caring for friends or saving a relationship until the next insane chapter a week later, to the point that we normalized it mentally.
We somehow forgot that this was not normal, and started acting as if that’s how everyone’s life is like, because, well, everyone we know is like this. Call it the “hot Scandinavian girl” syndrome: compared to almost everywhere else she is gorgeous, but in Sweden, surrounded by those equally gorgeous around her, she is simply just another girl. Same thing, only we are far more dangerous.
And yet we forget; we forget that we are dangerous; we forget that we are capable of feats that most people would consider impossible; Hell, we even forget that it happened, thanks to life’s never-ending barrage of insipid BS and the eventual burn out that follows. Most of us view ourselves to be defeated, unable to take anymore of this, and in need of support and validation. That old platitude about how no one makes a victim out of you except yourself? Well, it’s been happening all around me, and it is driving me nuts.
It drives me nuts because they view the failings of the lesser beings around them as their own failing; if the friend sucks at being a friend, they blame themselves; If the relationship fails, they question their value; If the work environment grows toxic because they are surrounded by mediocre people, they start thinking that they must be mediocre too, since they can’t seem to thrive in mediocre environments. The smartest guys and girls in the room, and they feel stupid on daily basis, because they are surrounded by stupidity on such a level that genius can’t resolve. A bunch of Lamborghinis stuck in the 6th of October bridge’s traffic.
And yet…And yet when they do find themselves backed into the corner, with no one to help them or others failing them, that’s when you see the god in them emerge. You see them accessing strength that moves mountains and ingenuity that solves the most complicated of problems. They marvel later on about how they found the surprising well of strength or the perseverance to go through what they just did, especially these days “when life feels like a never-ending beating”; although, if they just go through their memories, they would know that there is nothing surprising or new about that strength that they showed or about that challenge they just faced. Time was that they would’ve called that “insurmountable challenge”, whatever it is, just another Wednesday.
But they forgot. The world made them forget and told them a lie about who they truly are, and they believed it, and now they all sit waiting for some sort of miracle that would change their lives, or for their existence to end quickly. Gods waiting for a miracle; Gods who lost their will to live; Gods with self-doubt and anxiety. Imagine.
Maybe that’s how celestial beings decay: they link their value to the validation and support of lesser beings, and then wonder why they seem to fade away. Maybe that’s why the world is a shit-show, because the gods grew so insecure, that they got more consumed with wanting to be worshiped then actually fixing shit. Maybe the Gods too forgot their story, forgot who they are and what they can do. Maybe…The world excels in making you forget who you are; the world is really good at making you feel insignificant, a defeated loser, a failure; even though it is all lies, and each one of you has the scars to prove it. Maybe it is time to ignore what the world has to say about you. Maybe it is time for you to stop feeling sorry for yourself and get up and kick life’s ass. Maybe it is time you remember who you are, and watch the world tremble as you rise.